thursday in the hole

well good morning. my kid woke us up early (she's almost two) and wouldn't stop whining until i picked her up and walked the halls with her. it was so sad, she did the breathe-gulp-cry thing kids do when they try to relax after they've been crying or upset...joel, you'll understand some day. i don't get on here very much to post, so please, everyone go read my comment to john's post titled "Six jump off a roof," or something to that effect. its about three posts down. if you haven't already. read the other posts before you read mine. comment about my posting here. i've been at the same church(if your in the CofC i mean "congregation") now for two years. i'm a youth and family minister. i believe in God. i'm a follower of Jesus. but i actually might be a little discouraged right now. don't gasp. they lied to us when "they" told us the christian life would be a mountain top (draw a little ^ mountain like that and draw a line to the peak). i don't know about you but my christianity has seen some really high ups (jimmy got em' joel) and some really fat downs. mike yaconelli, in Messy Spirituality (which i own two copies of now) draws cute little diagrams that illustrate this point. it just so happens that i'm at the bottom of this, in the low valley having lunch and the waiter left to get me a refill on unsweet tea and hasn't come back for three months. you know john, sometimes i feel like i'm at the edge of the roof, ready to jump...metaphorically speaking (my laptop and wireless modem are in someone else's house, so i'm really in my office typing 'on the edge'). so i'm ready to jump...but while i'm admittedly down and discouraged (because i'm a realist, truly realistic) when i get the courage to jump, i'll just make a leap to another building, or dive off and bounce when i hit the concrete like Keanu Reeves from the matrix (because i am optimistic). i follow Jesus (and hope still remains) because God blesses me, you, us with the ability to see what life is really like, and still be optimistic (and rejoice) inspite of where we are. blog that john.