Wednesday, August 31, 2005
Tuesday, August 30, 2005
Uncertain Certainty
Friday, August 26, 2005
Closed for the Weekend
Another Fellow's Blessings
Thursday, August 25, 2005
No Time To Judge
Wednesday, August 24, 2005
A Prayer For A Friend
Tuesday, August 23, 2005
Looking Down
Monday, August 22, 2005
Thanksgivings
 Just in time, the Lord provided a weekend that was such a blessing to me. Some months ago I bought tickets to two Atlanta Braves baseball games at Turner Field. As time got close, I realized that the pocket change was in short supply and I didn’t think I would get to attend because I couldn’t afford the hotel room. An anonymous friend stepped in and paid my way. I wanted to refuse, but to tell you the truth I NEEDED to get out of town for a few days. I humbly accepted. It was a great trip with some close friends from Ocean Springs. I made some new friends on the trip as well.
Sunday was a good day as well at our church. A friend was baptized into Jesus, and that brought us all a great deal of peace and happiness. We had lunch with almost twenty friends at a freind's house.
Sunday night we had a Coast Wide Worship Service at the Saenger Theater in Biloxi. Christians came streaming in from Slidell (Louisiana), Bay St. Louis, Lucedale, Moss Point, Ocean Springs, Vancleave, Gulfport, Long Beach, Orange Grove, Biloxi, and Pascagoula. It was an awesome night of worship. My friend Les presented an excellent message.
After that great event, my wife and I had a late supper with one of our deacons and his wife… dear friends. We talked until we just couldn’t talk any more, then went out in the parking lot and talked another thirty minutes.
I’ve been pretty tired today, but I did visit the hospital, taught a teen discipleship class, and went to the track and walked a mile and a half. I also got to see Chipper Jones’ winning home run for the Braves tonight on television.
In actuality, nothing much has changed about what’s happening around my place. But, a loving wife, time on a road trip with the guys, witnessing a new birth, worship with my Family, and connecting with friends, have all served as means by which the Lord has gotten me back on center.
Plus I have to really thank all of you for your supportive comments. It’s good to know that others go through the same things. It’s also good to know that there’s a way to see it all through.
In all of this I think God was showing me that He has got everything in His hands. That’s all I really need to remember when I look around and think that things have gone nucular on me. There are tough days ahead. My Abba will walk with me through them all. 
Yesterday is a wrinkle on your forehead 
Yesterday is a promise that you've broken 
Don't close your eyes, don't close your eyes 
This is your life and today is all you've got now
---Switchfoot, This Is Your Life
Just in time, the Lord provided a weekend that was such a blessing to me. Some months ago I bought tickets to two Atlanta Braves baseball games at Turner Field. As time got close, I realized that the pocket change was in short supply and I didn’t think I would get to attend because I couldn’t afford the hotel room. An anonymous friend stepped in and paid my way. I wanted to refuse, but to tell you the truth I NEEDED to get out of town for a few days. I humbly accepted. It was a great trip with some close friends from Ocean Springs. I made some new friends on the trip as well.
Sunday was a good day as well at our church. A friend was baptized into Jesus, and that brought us all a great deal of peace and happiness. We had lunch with almost twenty friends at a freind's house.
Sunday night we had a Coast Wide Worship Service at the Saenger Theater in Biloxi. Christians came streaming in from Slidell (Louisiana), Bay St. Louis, Lucedale, Moss Point, Ocean Springs, Vancleave, Gulfport, Long Beach, Orange Grove, Biloxi, and Pascagoula. It was an awesome night of worship. My friend Les presented an excellent message.
After that great event, my wife and I had a late supper with one of our deacons and his wife… dear friends. We talked until we just couldn’t talk any more, then went out in the parking lot and talked another thirty minutes.
I’ve been pretty tired today, but I did visit the hospital, taught a teen discipleship class, and went to the track and walked a mile and a half. I also got to see Chipper Jones’ winning home run for the Braves tonight on television.
In actuality, nothing much has changed about what’s happening around my place. But, a loving wife, time on a road trip with the guys, witnessing a new birth, worship with my Family, and connecting with friends, have all served as means by which the Lord has gotten me back on center.
Plus I have to really thank all of you for your supportive comments. It’s good to know that others go through the same things. It’s also good to know that there’s a way to see it all through.
In all of this I think God was showing me that He has got everything in His hands. That’s all I really need to remember when I look around and think that things have gone nucular on me. There are tough days ahead. My Abba will walk with me through them all. 
Yesterday is a wrinkle on your forehead 
Yesterday is a promise that you've broken 
Don't close your eyes, don't close your eyes 
This is your life and today is all you've got now
---Switchfoot, This Is Your Life
      Thursday, August 18, 2005
Will You Leave Too?
 In the spirit of sharing your heart as therapy, this blog is just raw. One of my friends thinks I expose too much of my thinking here. I rather think it’s better to be real and just let you know what’s up. I have no idea how many of our church members are reading this blog regularly. I hope that none of you are still living with the expectation of an elite super-preacher who never cusses when he stubs his toe. If you need me to be that, I would advise you go rent Pollyanna and have some popcorn and soda. As far as I know, though, you know better!
Well, in case you haven’t detected it yet, this has been one tough week. I’ll be honest and tell you that it’s one of those weeks when you feel like there’s a message coming through loud and clear: YOU CAN’T DO THIS ANY MORE. I’m just not sure where that message is coming from. I skate on the edge of self-doubt anyway, so it doesn’t take much to push me over the edge.
I suppose disappointment can only come from those we admire. If we didn’t admire them, and they let us down, we wouldn’t be surprised. So, in one way, the level of our disappointment is a pretty good measure of our estimation of another person. I’ve been here before. “Here” being this place where you feel the supports falling out from beneath you. The unexpected departures. Desertion from one you trusted. No, he’s not willing to talk about it. Yes, he’s made up his mind and nothing you say can change it. No, he will not be specific about what the problem is. Yes, he will pretend nothing’s wrong when he sees you out in public. No, he will not be back to church to explain to others. Yes, you will have to do that, John, and you deserve to bear that burden. Left behind to offer unexplainable explanations. Untenable options swim around in my mind about how to respond, and how not to respond.
Even so, I believe that Out Here Hope Remains. I know that others have been in my situation before. I’ve read Jeremiah’s tears and his desire to leave the prophet business. I’ve read an old Apostle’s tear-stained papyrus as he wrote about one of his disciples who had gone back into the world. I’ve sensed the fleeting moment of doubt as Jesus asked, “will you leave me too?” Where else would I go?
I’m hanging on, though. I’ve got some fresh challenges in front of me. I’m not afraid of them. Though the world (and some Christians) has tried to teach me not to trust, there are close friends that I trust. Our elders have been strong and steady in my life. I really do believe that Jesus is never far away.
Well, that’s how I’ll round out this week. See you Monday.
It's hard to think about what you've wanted
It's hard to think about what you've lost
This doesn't have to be the big get even
This doesn't have to be anything at all
I know you really want to tell me good-bye…
Stop draggin' my my heart around
---Stop Draggin’ My Heart Around, 
Stevie Nicks & Tom Petty
In the spirit of sharing your heart as therapy, this blog is just raw. One of my friends thinks I expose too much of my thinking here. I rather think it’s better to be real and just let you know what’s up. I have no idea how many of our church members are reading this blog regularly. I hope that none of you are still living with the expectation of an elite super-preacher who never cusses when he stubs his toe. If you need me to be that, I would advise you go rent Pollyanna and have some popcorn and soda. As far as I know, though, you know better!
Well, in case you haven’t detected it yet, this has been one tough week. I’ll be honest and tell you that it’s one of those weeks when you feel like there’s a message coming through loud and clear: YOU CAN’T DO THIS ANY MORE. I’m just not sure where that message is coming from. I skate on the edge of self-doubt anyway, so it doesn’t take much to push me over the edge.
I suppose disappointment can only come from those we admire. If we didn’t admire them, and they let us down, we wouldn’t be surprised. So, in one way, the level of our disappointment is a pretty good measure of our estimation of another person. I’ve been here before. “Here” being this place where you feel the supports falling out from beneath you. The unexpected departures. Desertion from one you trusted. No, he’s not willing to talk about it. Yes, he’s made up his mind and nothing you say can change it. No, he will not be specific about what the problem is. Yes, he will pretend nothing’s wrong when he sees you out in public. No, he will not be back to church to explain to others. Yes, you will have to do that, John, and you deserve to bear that burden. Left behind to offer unexplainable explanations. Untenable options swim around in my mind about how to respond, and how not to respond.
Even so, I believe that Out Here Hope Remains. I know that others have been in my situation before. I’ve read Jeremiah’s tears and his desire to leave the prophet business. I’ve read an old Apostle’s tear-stained papyrus as he wrote about one of his disciples who had gone back into the world. I’ve sensed the fleeting moment of doubt as Jesus asked, “will you leave me too?” Where else would I go?
I’m hanging on, though. I’ve got some fresh challenges in front of me. I’m not afraid of them. Though the world (and some Christians) has tried to teach me not to trust, there are close friends that I trust. Our elders have been strong and steady in my life. I really do believe that Jesus is never far away.
Well, that’s how I’ll round out this week. See you Monday.
It's hard to think about what you've wanted
It's hard to think about what you've lost
This doesn't have to be the big get even
This doesn't have to be anything at all
I know you really want to tell me good-bye…
Stop draggin' my my heart around
---Stop Draggin’ My Heart Around, 
Stevie Nicks & Tom Petty
      Recruiters
Tuesday, August 16, 2005
Family Is For Not Saying Goodbye
Family is for not saying goodbye.
That's the way it's supposed to be. If you are family you love, and you suffer through. You fight, and you make up. You give and you get. You let some things go, and you sometimes pin each other down. You rejoice in laughter, and you suffer in tears. But you do not say goodbye.
The weight of our own sin and judgments of each other is heavy. So when it gets to feeling heavy, you call on each other. You talk it out. You come to an understanding. You figure out a way. You spend a little less here, and a little more there. You ask for someone to forgive you, or you tell them that you forgive them. You embrace even while your heart is breaking. But you do not say goodbye.
You do not have clandestine hook ups with others.
You do not send letters to sever relationships.
You do not pretend that the situation is hopeless.
You do not speak lies about each other.
You do not just disappear without a word.
You do not undermine the family you left behind.
You do not forget what we've been through together.
Family is for not saying goodbye. Otherwise what good is it? I know that things sometimes do not always work out the way we would like them to. I know we grow disappointed with one another. I know that I have failed my family often. I know that some could not forgive me. I know that some have failed me. I know that there are some I've had a hard time forgiving.
If I can shout for a second, CAN WE PLEASE STOP LEAVING ONE ANOTHER?
This is a profound mystery—but I am talking about ... the church. [Ephesians 5:32]
I took it all for granted, But how was I to know
That you'd be letting go, Now it cuts like a knife
--- Cuts Like A Knife, Bryan Adams
What Shouldn't Be Passed Around
Monday, August 15, 2005
Setting the World Right By Decree
Friday, August 12, 2005
Headin' Out For The Weekend
Thursday, August 11, 2005
Led By Anger?
Wednesday, August 10, 2005
Short Races
Tuesday, August 09, 2005
What I Would Like About Space
 I'm going to do what I do best in this column, speak from ignorance. Today the world held it's collective breath while space shuttle DISCOVERY touched down in the California desert early this morning. I cried and I really do not know why. Perhaps relief that this was not another COLUMBIA tragedy.
Truly, I do not understand a single reason why we spend billions of dollars to send people up into space for 13 days. I have read about all of the things we wouldn't have if it weren't for the space program. I just wonder if NASA hadn't discovered these things, would someone else? Is the space program a necessary part of the technological evolution of the human race, or is it simply a consensual partner in the enterprise? Anyhow, that's not what I'm writing about. I'm writing from ignorance, remember?
I thought it was appropriate to load up some Electric Light Orchestra as I write about space. Aside from all the useful technological mumbo jumbo, I wanted to share with you what I would like about space.
I think space would be quiet. Living between a world-class refinery and a nationally endowed shipyard, I never hear the quiet. When I visit places in the country, the thing that almost startles me is the very loud quiet. It's so quiet that it's simply blaring! Without a factory churning out product, absent an automobile with a sound system designed to raise the dead, and away from televisions endlessly shouting commercials at us, I think space would be silent. I would like that.
I think space would be peaceful. Even though I revel in Hollywood productions like Star Trek and Star Wars, space is the final frontier of peace. It's the place that man hasn't turned into a war zone (yet). In space there are no suicide bombers, biological weapons, nuclear stockpiles, or grenade throwing radicals. At least none that we know about. It is in a space station that the Russians, the Chinese, Americans, and others share a table.
I think space would render me weightless. Do I need to explain this one?
And I guess that's why I somewhat regret space exploration. In our dreams we can travel among the stars and find silence, peace, and brotherhood. If we keep intruding into this beautiful expanse, how long will it take for us to turn it into the noisy, polluted, exploitive, violent place that our planet has become?
Oh, I know that there's plenty of space. And even if we lived on the moon ... or mars ... we could set our sights even farther into other galaxies. But are there children laying underneath the stars tonight in some far away land, or someplace so close yet unknown to me, who are going to sleep hungry while we fret about rocket boosters and heating tiles? Would a thousand dollars be a lifetime income for them while we expend billions to the deterioration of our universe.
We've been poor stewards of the earth. Let's leave the night sky for the dreamers to dream, and let's change an impoverished world. I'd like to leave it alone. That's what I would like most about space.
Mister blue sky 
Please tell us why
You had to hide away for so long
Where did we go wrong?
----Mr. Blue Sky, Electric Light Orchestra
I'm going to do what I do best in this column, speak from ignorance. Today the world held it's collective breath while space shuttle DISCOVERY touched down in the California desert early this morning. I cried and I really do not know why. Perhaps relief that this was not another COLUMBIA tragedy.
Truly, I do not understand a single reason why we spend billions of dollars to send people up into space for 13 days. I have read about all of the things we wouldn't have if it weren't for the space program. I just wonder if NASA hadn't discovered these things, would someone else? Is the space program a necessary part of the technological evolution of the human race, or is it simply a consensual partner in the enterprise? Anyhow, that's not what I'm writing about. I'm writing from ignorance, remember?
I thought it was appropriate to load up some Electric Light Orchestra as I write about space. Aside from all the useful technological mumbo jumbo, I wanted to share with you what I would like about space.
I think space would be quiet. Living between a world-class refinery and a nationally endowed shipyard, I never hear the quiet. When I visit places in the country, the thing that almost startles me is the very loud quiet. It's so quiet that it's simply blaring! Without a factory churning out product, absent an automobile with a sound system designed to raise the dead, and away from televisions endlessly shouting commercials at us, I think space would be silent. I would like that.
I think space would be peaceful. Even though I revel in Hollywood productions like Star Trek and Star Wars, space is the final frontier of peace. It's the place that man hasn't turned into a war zone (yet). In space there are no suicide bombers, biological weapons, nuclear stockpiles, or grenade throwing radicals. At least none that we know about. It is in a space station that the Russians, the Chinese, Americans, and others share a table.
I think space would render me weightless. Do I need to explain this one?
And I guess that's why I somewhat regret space exploration. In our dreams we can travel among the stars and find silence, peace, and brotherhood. If we keep intruding into this beautiful expanse, how long will it take for us to turn it into the noisy, polluted, exploitive, violent place that our planet has become?
Oh, I know that there's plenty of space. And even if we lived on the moon ... or mars ... we could set our sights even farther into other galaxies. But are there children laying underneath the stars tonight in some far away land, or someplace so close yet unknown to me, who are going to sleep hungry while we fret about rocket boosters and heating tiles? Would a thousand dollars be a lifetime income for them while we expend billions to the deterioration of our universe.
We've been poor stewards of the earth. Let's leave the night sky for the dreamers to dream, and let's change an impoverished world. I'd like to leave it alone. That's what I would like most about space.
Mister blue sky 
Please tell us why
You had to hide away for so long
Where did we go wrong?
----Mr. Blue Sky, Electric Light Orchestra
      Monday, August 08, 2005
A few pics of the Wreck
 
 
 We're Glad It Wasn't Worse. Little Honda CRV held up pretty good in the roll over. All of the pictures I took can be seen HERE.
We're Glad It Wasn't Worse. Little Honda CRV held up pretty good in the roll over. All of the pictures I took can be seen HERE.
      Sunday, August 07, 2005
A Call That Changes Everything
Friday, August 05, 2005
Weekend Update
 Not much blogation this week on my part … maybe next week I’ll rev up again. Tomorrow I’m taking a busload of teens to Six Flags New Orleans. Sunday is a pretty big day for us with lots going on. Perhaps there’ll be something new here late Sunday night or Monday.
Until then…don’t forget to check out the WEEKENDERS blog.
And in the column to the left you can find a link to my List-O-Blogs. That should keep you busy if you’re looking for a great read.
Have a super weekend. Love to know what you’re up to … if you want to leave a note!
 Not much blogation this week on my part … maybe next week I’ll rev up again. Tomorrow I’m taking a busload of teens to Six Flags New Orleans. Sunday is a pretty big day for us with lots going on. Perhaps there’ll be something new here late Sunday night or Monday.
Until then…don’t forget to check out the WEEKENDERS blog.
And in the column to the left you can find a link to my List-O-Blogs. That should keep you busy if you’re looking for a great read.
Have a super weekend. Love to know what you’re up to … if you want to leave a note! 
      Wednesday, August 03, 2005
If God Were Dead Today
 God could, however, be dismayed at what we have done to our assembly. Do you think that Jesus, when proclaiming the coming Kingdom, ever envisioned a pew-filled cathedral where people would come and practice religion? I believe he knew about that kind of thing ... and he spoke out against it pretty strongly. My friend Steve has one of those "Religion Kills" t-shirts ... the kind with the fist holding the hand grenade. It is striking. It make me wince. But I know it is true. I just wonder how many Christians know that their religious acts are not the calling of Christianity?
Patrick Mead is writing some heavy stuff about Christianity taking place away from the building. We need to hear that message. At some point along the way I adopted a belief that stated that if the worship service was pretty good, the rest of the church stuff would fall into place. I know now that the worship service will be a farce if our lights are snuffed out as we re-enter the 'real world'. 
I'd like to turn the statement around ... the one at the end of that urban legend I started this column with. How about this: "If God Were Dead Today, We Might Be Shocked That There Would Be No Changes In The Church." Does our existence depend upon a living God? If so, how is that demonstrated? If not, then what have we become?
God could, however, be dismayed at what we have done to our assembly. Do you think that Jesus, when proclaiming the coming Kingdom, ever envisioned a pew-filled cathedral where people would come and practice religion? I believe he knew about that kind of thing ... and he spoke out against it pretty strongly. My friend Steve has one of those "Religion Kills" t-shirts ... the kind with the fist holding the hand grenade. It is striking. It make me wince. But I know it is true. I just wonder how many Christians know that their religious acts are not the calling of Christianity?
Patrick Mead is writing some heavy stuff about Christianity taking place away from the building. We need to hear that message. At some point along the way I adopted a belief that stated that if the worship service was pretty good, the rest of the church stuff would fall into place. I know now that the worship service will be a farce if our lights are snuffed out as we re-enter the 'real world'. 
I'd like to turn the statement around ... the one at the end of that urban legend I started this column with. How about this: "If God Were Dead Today, We Might Be Shocked That There Would Be No Changes In The Church." Does our existence depend upon a living God? If so, how is that demonstrated? If not, then what have we become?
      Monday, August 01, 2005
The Day Returns
In the land where he would die, Robert Louis Stevenson composed this simple prayer. It is a morning prayer that, to me, glories in the ordinary day. A day in which we face those things that vex us, we face our duties, and we face both with joy. What goals he has prayed for our day: weariness, contentment, and honor. Let's not leave out that precious commodity so often lacking in those nightowl bloggers, sleep.
I would consider this a wonderful prayer for the beginning of our day. We've spent too many days trying to avoid weariness, allowing those irritating elements to make us grumpy, and rushing through our work just to get it done. I don't see how we can go to bed undishonored, as Stephenson suggests.
Many things may muddy our day. Let's let our spirit look upward as we face the trials. And if it too difficult, then let us at least begin our day with the request for God's help. If we fail, the day returns tomorrow for us to attempt to do better.
Until one day the day will not return. As it didn't for Stephenson. As it won't for us, save the coming of the Lord.
What did you really want out of today? Think about it.



